And I Don't Like Being [[Used]] And I'm Tired Waiting...

While I'm sitting here watching stupid movies aimlessly I discover me putting myself in the very situation that they are in...for instance the movie dirty dancing, would I be strong enough to stand up for the man i love even though it meant telling my dad something he didn't want to hear? And now in the movie Under The Tuscan Sun the actress gets a divorce and while on a tour of Italy...She randomly buys a house and is living out the life she loves all because she had signs! I like this movie because she is starting to truly find herself when all the odds are against her...

I wonder if I will trust myself enough to take giant leaps of faith...I know that God always has a plan for us and all that jazz but I find it hard to believe that he will help us without me putting some effort in. I have no idea if that makes any sense at all to anybody but me, but oh well...

No matter what happens, always keep your child innocence...its the most important thing.

--Under The Tuscan Sun

Yesterday I was told, "Samantha, set your goals high and never compromise. If you do that then you'll go far, well as far as you want to I guess." The man that told me this really has know idea 'who' i am, what i believe and what i am capable of doing. But because he has faith in me and has watched me grow up through years he believed every bit of this statement...another reason why i'm scared to fail at life...