Black&White Photo :)

Oooh Buddy! There is just something about black&white photos that make my heart skip a beat...maybe its because it lets you see the real beauty of something without all those distractions, just the way the light goes across a face or the twinkle it puts in an eye. Regardless I was more than happy to see the theme this week! Well anydoodles here is one of my favorites from this past summer at our Relay For Life! It was the "Survivors Lap" and two ladies from my hometown held hands as they crossed the finish line! This one will always have a special place in my heart just because of the atmosphere that night...Enjoy! :))

Fix It Friday #48 :)

Well I made it through another one! I'm thinking about just doing a lot of these so I can teach myself this program...well anyway I hope everybody enjoyed their fix-it-Friday because I sure did! :) Love, Sam

Fix It Friday #46 :)

Well I'm trying out this whole Fix It Friday thing that I came across of! Pretty excited about getting better at something that I love :) Guess we'll see how it goes!

Sure hope I do all these rules right! eeeek!

♥Sam

Well today was eventful to say the leaste...I went to sleep last night around 4:50ish and woke up to make it to class by eight. Aaaand I looked quite adorable if i do say so myself :)
But I can blame nobody but myself for my bedtime. I procrastinated like nobodies business! But I am very proud to say that I did not take a nap today and I did not yawn as much as you would expect.
Today I fixed my philosophy grade problem, turned in an essay, went to Harris with my little Garrett bear (ice cream in hand on the return!), saw taylor before she left :(, went to my dadgum art class that lasted about fourteen hours today, went to pluckers with Mercedes to help benefit O.D.Phi., came back to the school, proceeded to call fedex about my phone, cry from frustration, go to see an absolulty amazing Julliard performance at which I cried again (thinking I'm a little emotional today) and then finished it up with Devo at McCarty followed by an amazing new way to fold shirts taught by my very own RA: Ryan Bear Strand; Home of Club Strando of course! You know the guy right? hehe :))
But now I am in the comforts of my humble home of Elliott A side looking out to the starless night. On the otherhand SPRING BREAK HAS BEGUN!!! I'm very excited to say the leaste. I will eat lunch with little miss candace tomorrow before I head back to spend the night with shakey, katy and arlene :)) Possibly make cookies, movies and track meet on saturday!
Anydoodles I am very, very tired and still have packing, showering and lots more to do before I leave tomorrow. But I think I will just worry about everything except the shower tomorrow and go to sleep after I get all clean as a whistle :))
Goodnight my little journal who lets me get this all out faster than if I had to write it by pen!
SammieJo

So I've been thinking that its a sad story when you like somebody and your pretty sure that they have no idea...because in the end you know that life isn't a disney channel movie.



The way the media distorts information from the time we wake up till the late night movie we get out of is just part of our socialization...or so i've been told. We are never truely ourselves because so many people shape us to who we are today, right now and who we are destined to become. Who you surround yourself with is ultamatily how you will shape your future decisions and how you will grow. Or cease to grow. I guess the choice is yours.



I used to give the announcements daily at the high school and I was in charge of giving a quote of the day as well...and this one always sticks out in my mind like no other. "Inaction is an action in itself." I don't remember who said it but I definelty remember pinning it to the top of Dr. Bills board when I got back to the end of class.



So what I'm saying is that by being socialized for me was to let the boy make the first move, if he doesn't I won't get my disney channel ending and what I have to look forward to is the the fact that my inaction of not standing up to socialization and things that have put "women" in their "correct" place throughout the years is now wrecking havoc on my could-be but probably-not-so-much love life. I'm not blaming my roots or the fact that mostly everything I've learned has just been a joke on the "woman to go to the kitchen and make me a sandwich" type of thing. Which sometimes is great since I love cooking, but seriously, stereotyping women or men for that example to any role is subconsciencely puting limitations upon ourselves.



While I say all of this as if I'm going to go ask out the next man of my dreams it is definelty not that way in my actions. I will most likely continue to sit waiting for prince charming to find his steed and ultimately and get the deed for a house for us to live in with me doing the normal female role which I just said we shouldnt do...but I find it hard to break away from these social norms that I was brought up around. Because it seems here lately that those who break away from them are also the ones who end up in a divorce. So my brain is in an utter confusing state in which i'm having internal complications about who i want to become, believe and trust for not only comfort but also advice.

So to those who make Disney channel movies...thanks for making me a wreck.

To those who have any I'd love to hear it,



Sam